So Yh Today was ok i think i like it in a way lol hanged out with my m8s ermm i ate so thats good lol and doing homework right now oh sorry wht fun .............and other stuff really but the thing i dont get is im different in my yr and its odd as i acts all hard and tuff and i think im fat and im ugaly and i h8 my yr .

But as i wallked into class there was a mirrow there before the door and i just stood there and i looked and thought this aint me at all i look different to wht i thought i looked nice i look less fat then i thought i was i look hard and tuff because that is me so that wont change .
But then i look at the girls who walked past me well i call them the populars really there mini skirts hair up tons of make up and really skinny but does anyone think to they might be livin a doubel life as in them being mean at school and all stuck up to them going home and them being the sweetst person eva!

after thinking that i thought to my self ...Is that me at all , am i the meanist person eva at school and i h8 everyone to then comming home and being kind sweet as eva is that me do i have a double life and i just like a popular inside of me but i dont look like it on the outside .

when i thought that i just went..........NAHHHHH that aint me im all ways hard and tuff lol and no way! am i a popular but at that moment it make me think so i walked into class with ipod on and just carried on with my work but in the back of my mind all i could think about was am i like them in a way and then i hear a voice going HELLL NOOOOO